Lana’s MKE Week 2 Scroll 1 is so long!

So I made it through week 1 activities despite the school holidays (week 1 too) while coping with the medical diagnosis of my son. During last week we got a very important referral to see a Specialist in Hormones and the Pituitary Gland at the Royal Children’s Hospital as this was my 1st preference,as it is the best hospital in the world and we are so blessed to have it in our home town. I found that I was feeling very overwhelmed by all my activities this week and no time to sit and watch the Webinar or work on my lesson 1 or 2 at all. It turned out that we had to travel 90 mins into the hospital 3 days in a row as we saw the Endocrinologist Tuesday, the Ophthalmologist Wednesday and the Neurosurgeon Thursday. Wow it was mentally, emotionally and physically exhausting for my boy and myself, my husband and his grandparents, who all came along to support us. He had blood tests done, he had eye testing done and results came back for Thursday. His results for his eyes were great as it showed that his vision is not effected from the tumour, which is awesome news! The not so great news was that the hormone Prolactin was up again from diagnosis and should be about 300-500 but was at levels of 26,000!!! It sounds frightful but it actually means that this is the confirmation that the tumour is secreting this hormone and it is therefore a Prolactinoma and NOT cancer!!! This is a huge relief. The Neurosurgeon then together with the Endo team had decided on a treatment plan, this is for him to begin medication to shrink the tumour and stop the Prolactin, therefore it would decrease the levels in his blood. All blood test came back and most things were good level except his thyroid was low, another indicator the tumour was causing havoc on his hormones. After much research and questioning as a worried parent I made the decision to try the medication, they have begun him on a low dose and slowly as it can cause nasty side effects. To add to more of a challenging time my son was finally told of his diagnosis by the Dr and I have been helping him understand, accept and cope with all this scary stuff. So as you can imagine this week was taken up with a lot of medical commitments and to be absolutely honest I was feeling really crappy and tired and could not be bothered doing any work. regardless of these feelings I still read my scroll 1 x2 times a day, my blueprint 2 times a day, morning and night out load and had a go at revising my DMP on Friday. During reading the scroll 1 I could feel my old Blue Print of self doubt, not completing things kicking in telling me this is too hard, I don’t have time but I just fought these negative thoughts and carried on. I had to begin a Definitive Major Purpose and submit my 1st draft to my guide in Week 1 and she had returned it back to me revised and ready for me to have another go improving it. This was a great experience. I pulled up a chair on my decking and sat outside on Friday, Saturday and Sunday, got a lot of Vitamin D from the sun all the while I was working on my DMP for this week. . So far very pleased with my commitment despite all the challenging emotions and thoughts about my son.  I will try to be up to date for Week 3 but I know that I have a lot on my plate and will be kind to myself if I do not reach my goal to watch Week 2 webinar and follow that lesson. Believe me I want to but school holidays is a demanding time too, my son and I needed to have some FUN and just feel like life was normal for him!!!!