Week 11 MKE Well I am on fire with my catch up!!

This week I did not mange to see the 3 part webcast but do have it on my list of things to do, so this will have to wait now until I am freed up enough when I am on my own and I have achieved my tasks for week 11. I missed the live lesson but it is so much better now that I have almost caught up and no longer behind by 2 or 3 weeks.

Week 11 was all about doing the list of things I had been behind with, even so I rewrote my Index cards too because they felt messy and unorganised to me. The copies now are neat and tidy and flow a lot better and really resonate with me.

I had my son home from school too, he has broken up for the year, 2 weeks of no classes and only activities which he is not interested in attending, none of his mates will be there so I can not force him to go and be lonely for 2 weeks until the real break up happens.

This has put a lot of extra pressure on me as he has some very challenging behaviour he has reverted back to after some small breakthroughs about a week ago. This makes it very hard because he is angry and negative around me and he expresses some nasty feeling about my course, he is resentful of me studying and feels that he is not important. I have of course tried to explain to him that this is not more important than him but it is important to me and makes me happy. He rejects all conversation and will not allow me to express my feelings at the moment.

Sometime I feel that it is the tumour to blame and the hormone imbalances but I know that it is also teenagers changes in general as well as his other parents negative influences on him as he sees him more now with the 50/50 living arrangements were pushed upon me in August. It is not easy coping and dealing with all of this but I know that because of MKE it has helped me become stronger and more powerful in my mind to accept and go through the motions of the negativity that comes my way.

So I hope to get to the point on Sunday that I am ready for Week 12 lesson webcast and can finally be engaged in a live and feel extremely happy that I got here to this point!

Blessings

Lana xo